why do the strong always have to be?

youre certainly not alone in this.. as the "rock" and stability it seems of all of those around me.. im expected to be there, listen, hold up, counsel, comfort.. but when im the one thats falling down.. those that im being crushed under the weight off.. scatter.. and leave me to fall alone. sound familiar? i was told once the reason for this, is that those who have grown dependant upon me to be their shelter from the storm, cannot handle the reality that i can falter too. somewhere in their brains theyve convinced themselves that i am infallable, that i dont hurt, that i dont cry.. that i dont feel. logically.. if i didnt feel and didnt care.. would i be there to scoop them up when theyre falling? no i wouldnt. and being left to deal with my own things in solitude, only adds to the pain im already dealing with in the first place. so you have my sympathies, and my support. and if you need some shelter.. theres someone who understands perfectly how yer feeling.. with a little bit extra to give if you wish.

I've told you a hundred times (maybe not that many) but enough that you need to stop with the charade and be who you are and stop closing yourself off. You are human. You have feelings and you need to express those feelings wether you are sad or mad or hurt whatever they may be. You can't keep up with this charade for too much longer. I know what your reasons are and I know who you put the front on for and I think that it is unfair. I would rather have a shoulder to cry on than cry alone which is what I do most of the time. So I am telling you now. Hear me. Please know that my shoulder is always here for you and I am the last person who would ever think ill of you because you are upset. I think I would have proven that by now. I need a shoulder sometimes too. So please if you ever need to vent know that I am here. I love ya.