I no longer have a dream!

You have a computer, and can reach out. Look around and explore the internet. Look for oportunities. You are on MyLot, so the way you are going you can probably aford to drink decent coee. Keep communicating, and looking around on the internet. I would probably feel the same way as you did if I did not own a omputer. I met my husband on line, and I'm making lots o money on line too. I also met a lot of nice people, you being one of them.

I know what you mean, Raydene. I find even in my night dreams I'm doing things like being stuck in a endless quarry with no way out or back. Or having to carry a bomb on my back, and all I can hope to do is save the other people around me from it.

We all feel that way from time to time Raydene. You have had so much to deal with for the last year.. I think it will take a long time to feel like everything is the way it should be. Nothing will ever be exactly the same though... change happens all the time.

Hi raydene! I love dreams and dreaming. I have always been passionate with my dreams and make them come true. they are my goals and will do everything I can to reach my dreams. But I do admit that as I have been through a lot, I have been having hard time believing in my dreams and in my capabilities of making them come true. In my heart, I know I can still reach them but sometimes, my mind does not agree anymore. Just like you, I feel like I'm at the dead end most of the time.
Take care and God bless!

sounds like depression to me, everyone must have a dream big or small, it is something to look forward to, to try and make our lots better in life, whether you dream is become a world leader, or the simply a good mother, everyone should have a dream.

I 'm lost my own dream for about two to three years. I feel live very upset everyday, with no aims, just working and back to home, then working. I don't have my own idea, and just work with not thinking of everything. Everything I do just to earn some for my food and house. I don't think any thing. That's really black days of me. I finally past that time. I have my dreams now, that's just let myself living full and happy. so don't be upset, man can't live without a dream.

Whilst it borrows a lot from the peculiarities of the SCA, I found a short story a few weeks ago I think you might find relevant, www.florilegium.org/files... .