I'm evil and you're all disappointed with me...oh well!

Well I didn't neg you, nor delete you. None of us are perfect. Just because you reacted differently from me, doesn't make you satan! We have all done things we aren't proud of, live and learn huh? I got a temper too, hon. It would be a very dreary world if we were all exactly alike, now wouldn't it?

Oh foxy some days it just doesn't seem to go your way....ok a lot of days. While I didn't jump right in on the other discussion I did read some responses and I read your post. I am not going to call you evil I am not going to say I am disappointed in you I understand that you reacted that way because of a deep hurt that is still a wound in you. That is what humans do they react out of thier emotions. You are human we all are.
I will tell you this when I had seen that my exhusbands current wife has gained a lot of weight and that he has lost all his teeth and s going bald I did laugh cause of the pain they have both caused me and my daughter. Sorry but the truth is i am human too.
Don't let it get you down. Hang in there!

and this is what happens when i am not here!
I miss everything! LOL
i honestly dont know what is going on or what was said but the last i checked you are human
you are human right? LOL
humans are complex creatures and there are many facets to our personalities
some a nice and some are well not so nice but they are all part of you
and people can either accept you for EVERYTHING you are OR they can do you a favor and stay away from you

Well, I am still here for you Foxy. I told you exactly what I thought in that discussion, and haven't for a second thought of you any differently than when I first accepted your friend request (or when you accepted mine, you know my memory isn't worth a dang lol)

But you have been here long enough to know that most of the people here aren't the same. You shouldn't be surprised that once you stepped out of the candy-coated shell that everyone thought was you, and delved into the ugly, that it would start a wave of lost friends and ratings. You either edit what you put on this site and go with the flow, or you be real and put your cares about the opinions of the small-minded people here to the wind.

Bottom line of what I thought is this. Have I been in her situation? Similar as far as the cheating. Have I wished the other person dead? Yes. Would I have reacted the same way if this happened to me? No, because I am a guilty feeling person and probably would have found some way to blame myself for the accident. Is she a bad person for feeling this way? NO, because everyone reacts to situations, and this was hers. I only felt sorry for you, because IMO to feel like that, you had to have some bad feelings left from the original situation, and that can only hurt you in the long run.

The fact of the matter is, on this site you have your real friends that stick by you no matter what you talk about, and the fake ones who agree with you as long as its in their mindset. As soon as you come out of that frame, they're the same ones that end up trolling you. Be glad, if it took that discussion to find out who your real friends are, you are better off.

Hi foxy,

I am not sure if I responded to that topic but I know I have always your notification..ANyway, I am very open here and will never delete friends just because she/he was honest enough to what he/she thinks even if it is opposite to what I believed!
We can't please everyone really but at least we know who are real friends here! enjoy!

I don't believe, foxyfire, that your real friends would abandon you over this, but I do think you should examine the reasons for such a strong reaction to this woman's death after such a long time. If you are a praying person that might help, if not, a bit of soul searching might fit the bill. We all do things or react in ways that we are not particularly proud of from time to time. Don't beat yourself up over this. You are human!

I have read through the whole thing, and thrown in a couple of comments. I cannot judge you, I am not you. I also "got it" better when you talked about the "connection" feeling. I think some things do not work well on a discussion forum, and this is obviously one of them. I know you needed to explain what you felt to someone, but this did not work out well for you to do it this way.

I know you're a good person foxy, a good person with lots of baggage, a lot of it we don't understand, and some of it we have come to understand through other discussions you've posted. I wouldn't delete you because you were honest about how you felt when that lady died, sure I was shocked, but I think it might have been a start to you letting go, I don't know, but I sure didn't give you a neg either.

Keep being you and don't change because others disagree with how you feel.

No foxy, you went beyond a human reaction. Had to kept those thoughts and feelings to yourself, that would have ben a human response.

You, instead chose to post the horrible event and your twisted reaction for all to see.

Did you really expect to get support from everyone here?
I understand how you felt, but I couldn't understand your open bashing and the way you showed excitement at the horrible death of another human being, especially when an 11 year old child was left behind.
Now you start this didcussion th try and explain yourself and I might add that you haven't done a very good job...

But really... how can one defend behavior like what you showed here yesterday.
If I were on your friends list I wouldn't have deleted you, but I sure would have spoken out in the way I did.
You most likely would have deleted me instead.

I hope things get better for you foxy, I really do.

Who cares about those folks? We all do evil things in our lives that others look on poorly.